da happz

ok heres a recap... i didnt go to mrs ms to see in the new year... and caleb DID go out... so like 2014 i DID see it in alone... actually correction i didnt see it in at all... i went to sleep haha... yea thats what i think of this new years thing... unless you have the desire to really wanna change shit then these years will remain the same. anyway ive been doing lots of thinking about the socalled "oz incident" that i was chatting about... i will discuss this in greater detail as well as writeup past tense reviews for 2008 - 2014. My place needs time alone with me... i need to get the Mascularium all spruced up for a potential tenanting... infact the air quality at my place is so bad that ive asked Caleb to head back home for the time being until its all sorted... he too admitted that its very hard to sleep at mine cos of the dust. its either dust, mould, or pollen thats causing the problem... all of which ill be able to suss in the  ext few months... cleaning the ceilings,...

to be honest what can i really say? a year with a 4 in it.... mmmmm  it started off with a fullon rage and desire for revenge after a bad 2013. to be honest this rage was a mixed blessing. yes sure it got me out of the shit of 2013 but then started its own up. lets look at the two bugbears that have plagued me ever since i started at post... finances and weight. now these two areas should have majorly improved with a job like post but instead they havent thanx to my bad lifestyle... just goes to show how much life is about how you make it.  anyway the first half of 2014 saw huge improvements in both areas... infact it was the first year since 2011 where my weight fell below 80kgs... not only that but i was disciplined with my savings. however i was unable or shall i say unwilling to let go of former hurts and that plus some other issues caused me to relapse... infact by years end i was in an even worse position than at da start... which was not cool. this was a year where i tr...

not a very good month... a contiation of no money and being fat... plus dramas with the car and even a half hearted suicide attempt... but realised so many ppl hate my guts... and would be stoked at my passing. not keen on making them happy so suicide is sorta outa the question.  most of the  month was spent not working... when i was working i was very very slow... but that worked well as the late finishes worked in my favour. on da plus side im getting into bikes more... bad shits all good so long as you learn from it... and im getting so angry now that change is inevitable.