2014 SUMMARY

to be honest what can i really say? a year with a 4 in it.... mmmmm 

it started off with a fullon rage and desire for revenge after a bad 2013. to be honest this rage was a mixed blessing. yes sure it got me out of the shit of 2013 but then started its own up. lets look at the two bugbears that have plagued me ever since i started at post... finances and weight. now these two areas should have majorly improved with a job like post but instead they havent thanx to my bad lifestyle... just goes to show how much life is about how you make it.  anyway the first half of 2014 saw huge improvements in both areas... infact it was the first year since 2011 where my weight fell below 80kgs... not only that but i was disciplined with my savings. however i was unable or shall i say unwilling to let go of former hurts and that plus some other issues caused me to relapse... infact by years end i was in an even worse position than at da start... which was not cool.

this was a year where i truly was angry and apart from the good gains i mentioned above it never ended well or amounted to anything decent.

the end of the year was a debacle in itself... besically from August onwards it was a time to forget... the only bright part was a return to athletics... which was good in that i attended all the outings... for sure there are encouraging signs in all of this and as with lots of things... the opportunites are there of im keen on grabbin them.

it was a year where i tried different things... it was quite a "sporty" year... had a bit of a warrior tinge to it... with the aggressive theme to the year, the soundtrack of which was the Hatebreed track "destroy everything", the wrestling training especially with Andrea and the continued interest in weapons... both melee and ranged... including staunch support for firearm ownership. 

yea there were definately huge flashes of brilliance and new ideas were spawned but the entire year was let down my my continued inability to harness my emotions. i would not ne in the position to once again pick up the pieces in 2015 if it wasnt for my inabilty to focus my rage onto progress and not let my fears of the unknown tear me to bits.

im presented with all these opportunites for 2015... but will i turn the corner?... well i guess this is the place to read and find out woop woop.

have a good 2015...

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