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Still at funstation.... but been moving stuff back on regular occasions for the expected move back to mine... still got quite a bit to go.  Bullshit happening of course... but thats normal of course... what WASNT normal was what happened on the last day of the month... yep i WENT KITESURFING... a first for this year... yep im THAT pissed off. In other news had an unnofficial peak weight of 94kgs but it wasnt legit as i was clothed and feed... the 94kgs 2 years ago was starved and stripped... but i was still struggling to get into my kiting gear lol.

the biggest dramas this month were at mine... its not terribly hard to pay just over $50 each when your getting an income... oh well jokes on them.  im probably gonna be evicting ppl if i have to move back into mine.  yes it is true that they can stay until the end of 2016..... provided im not there as well.  anyway more bullshit... typical. on a brighter note athletics resumed and armageddon was very good indeed.  Halloween didnt quite deliver for me but the outings i went to were good... mainly Evas place.

Scott Matthews bday tomorrow.... allways good to hang with Scotty and a rare occasion where the old troop can have a sorta reunion as well... a reminder of better times. speaking of better times... the writeups of more current times are gonna be going up as well... except the past tense 2014 writeup... which will be written up at the end of this year.

what would 2015 be without bullshit eh.  allways something to piss me off. allmost tempted to have spice some shit nup in this end part.  what you guys reckon? leave your comments in the comments section hahaha... mite have well quote that as ppl say it in their youtube vids..  btw i mite as well link you guys to certain pages of mine whilst im at it. www.youtube.com/mtuckster www.facebook.com/mtuckster www.facebook.com/thrasherkiteboarding ill have to check these as i dunno if they are the actual links lol.

i will be writing up armageddon, halloween and guyfawkes seperately but lets just say that i at least have pulled my weight into sparking some redemption into this year.  i cant rely on others to do the deed.  In saying that Armageddon imo was really good... thanks in part to an excellent IPW.  Halloween was good.... me having it at multiple places.... including evas for her annual halloween party.  Guyfawkes is allmost upon us and as expected i spent shitloads of money on fireworks again... however focusing on things with boom as opposed to just buying big boxes of assorted ones.  i have also started athletics but a 50% attendance so far and very ordinary results when i do go. things start getting hectic from now until end of year...expensive, busy, fun, even social perhaps.

A post apocylyptic month... from the frying pan into the fire.  the new beginning... in a month that some were saying was the end. Moving into andreas did alleviate some of the bullshit somewhat but there was still internal strife to sort out. on the whole however it wasnt too bad externally.  still hugely bitter however and have been contemplating the idea of moving... however to a premises thats also mine.  still way off however and more immediate residences will revolve around renting.  still no desire to return to the place of dramas.... mine.  Wont be staying at andreas forever though and hope to move into mrs ms sometime.

looking back at 2013 i can see that it sorta breaks the mould a tad... it sorta provides an exception to the general notion that each year has been getting worse and worse since 2010... it was a close one in regards to 2013... sure it was definately worse than 2012... but was it better than 2014?  i think maybe... but only just.  supersize me.... yea applies to a year that was my heaviest ever... lowest weight was 83kgs but mostly around 90 and a peak of 94!... thats over 200 pounds... and got a pic of me in jaxxs pool in november 2013 on my work hols when i was that weight... and its a such a grossout pic of me with my tummy rolls that it really needs to be framed and put on my wall!... or at least my facebook page. anyway i saw it in with wazza and braeden at mine... and me wazza and andrea went to wharfjumping... nothing wrong with the start... although the antisociety attitude in me was alive and kicking i can assure you... even on a day in the sun. this would be one of ...

very topsy turvy time of year.... all over the show... like living in a nightmare. Caleb was at mine quite a bit... he pissed me off so i decided to fast track my moving into Andreas and decided to have him pay me $160 a week and live at mine by himself.  obviously this didnt work and my place was empty.  however at the end of july some ppl at mrs ms were keen on moving in... starting up an entirely new chapter at my place... infact i suddenly had 4 different groups of ppl wanting to move into mine... but decided to stick with the ones that didnt want the place to themselves.  also the 18 month drama free period between me and stipe came to an end.  whilst the event was trivial that finally ended it... there is obviously much underlying issues which will never be resolved.  one chapter of my existance that really is over. im still a very bitter person and whilst ive had obvious issues with ppl i have also discovered that some ppl are all good.  the jeep a...

2012 was seen in at mrs ms place... which is ironic as shit would go down there at the end of the year. this was the last year that i had no enemies that i knew of... ever since then ive had enemies and it was this year that i started hating the world... and societa and humanity and the system in general.  but it all started innocently enuf... i had huge goals for this year... majorly ambitious and you guessed it i never even came close to achieving them... but 2012 was certainly better than all the following years and unlike 2011 guyfawkes was epic... thanx mainly to Braeden... who i hung out with lots. However my birthday had dramas... and i fell out with Eva and Andrea... two different reasons.  not to be outdone the system pissed me off too as i had my first ever in person chemtrail sighting in Jan... so it was me against the world.  The new system at work was going well... and i was starting to crank the hours... and as i still had Aston and Emma at mine i was gett...

Ok now i saw in 2011 whilst in OZ... the first time i spent new years in another country since 1986.  it was a state of Eutopia... this period... the huge holidays i had from late 2010 to early Feb 2011 was one of the most pleasureable periods of my entire existance.  after a great time in Sydney with Craig i came back to Auckland and celebrated my bday and Davids bday at mrs ms place before heading on my second OZ trip... this time to stay with Luke... in Brisbane.  Loved OZ, loved the ppl... loved the weather... even though it DOES rain in Brissy.... it rains lots.  we were getting flooded out whilst back at home in auckland my venus flytrap was baking in one of the hottest summers there for over a decade and it dried up and died thanks to no rain.  we kited in Brissy... some days amazing conditions.  Came back to Auckland full of life... at the peak... cos things were about to go down hill and have not stopped descending to this day. However in the gra...

well not officialy summer but hints are there... pollen etc and with it hayfever. getting sunburnt now too. long days and with it sleepless nights... glad im on my exile at da mo... hope to stay on exile all the way through the summer. anyway events coming up... as allways a busy month lies ahead and prob another wallet smasher at that... athletics starts up on tuesday and with it the customary purchase of gym gear... which is basically what i wear all the time now as its more practicial than dressing like a "gangsta".  then of course there is the trangle of madness that is Armageddon, Halloween and then of course GUYFAWKES.  Was gonna skip Armgeddon this year but decided that i can never have too many zombie weapons and besides Jake the Snake Roberts is gonna be appearing at IPW woop woop. Anyway unsure about Halloween as to where im gonna have that but guyfawkes will be at mrs ms and Andreas... infact one of the reasons why im staying at Andreas is because of guyfawkes....

Ok real interesting things happening over August... firstly suddenly EVERYONE wants to move in to mine... like seriously wtf?  got 3 totally new flat mates... i also temporarily moved back into mine for a while until a 4th person moved in which meant that i moved out again.  Weve allready had someone leave.  Replaced by two ppl.... ones as close to an ideal tenant as you can get.... the other is Caleb... whos back for the millionth time.  Im still at andreas and hardly ever go to RH. more bullshit with ppl this month... namely some random bitch who thought she would get a tow truck and take my jeep away to the scrap dealers.  but i went to the cops and shes getting done for fraud... so that backfired on her bigtime. i was at work when it all happened but neighbour and flatmates caught em in the act. afterwards mrs m helped me out and thanks to their work the jeep is now back... at Grand Central... and the sentra will be following suit.  Bruce the mechanic...

more bullshit.... so really nothing out of the ordinary to be honest.  Got caleb to move in early... which didnt really work as he was a right nuisance... a deliberate nuisance... when i was ill... so i decided to fast track my moving into andreas... and told caleb he had to pay me $160 a week to live at mine alone. of course that went down like a fart in church and he moved out... but not before borrowing my bike and then not using his brain and leaving it in a place where it got stolen!  either late july or early august... so he moved out. in keeping with me "flatting" at andreas i decided to use the old JIM theme which is centred around me not owning my place but God owning it... as he does... he owns everything.  Anyway JIM.... the "7 foot tall ex army vet who shoots ppl in the street for drinking alcohol and pays the cops to cover it up" allegedly owned my place... JIM of course meaning Jesus In Me and was an interesting way to evangalise in England in the th...

Ok June wasnt brilliant... mostly dominated by driving issues... both with other drivers and of course my cars. Whilst the Demio... aka Demon was proving a handfull passing the WOF i did have some luck with the sentra... aka White litening.  infact i put two and two together and decided that biking around was better than driving... and it worked!  i had to as the sentra is dicey at intersections so i used it as little as possible. since then ive reverted to driving around again but under the new system at work i think reverting back to cycling everywhere is a good idea... so will trial that again.  but anyway lets not get ahead of ourselves. with the exception of caleb staying the evening at mine on one occasion it was mostly a solitary residing at mine.  Caleb is due here in late july so June was prob the last month of peace and quiet for a while... possibly forever... nah dunno about my long term plans just yet.... but ill give caleb a go at mine... more long t...

The entire year so far has been void of kitesurfing and spent in the red... need i say more? haha ok ill say more Caleb has been in and out of here... even when he had officially moved in it was sporadic at best and he paid me with labour as opposed to money... which i was all good with.  Anyway its been quite an antisocial year so far.... any socialising has mostly been confined to outings with Caleb and Stipe.  Less commonly i hang with Aston and the matthews clan. Works has been late finishing and this year there has been little if any speed on my part. whilst the year hasnt been anything to be stoked about sofar it has forced my hand in several areas... which have the potential to start a whole new phase and FINALLY unleash the beast within. its about time i tell ya

this aint the writeup but i will be doing one... just to recap.  anyway ill be writing up the june summary as well but ill chat about the two Cs that has totally dominated preceedings this month... Cars.. and Caleb. Cars.... well THAT time of year and as has been the norm the nazi WOF system has not dissapointed... heck not even the new car... aka the DEMON has escaped... DAMN very annoying especially in light of the tolerant attitude towards DRIVER issues.  Yea and ppl wonder why im a  "conspiracy theorist". Anyway decided to give the sentra a bit of a blat... out of necessity as the Demons rego expired on the 18th june and was unable to renew as no WOF.... both have been sorted now however.  Anyway the sentra... quite impressed... it did well... definately keeping it away from intersections but on the open roads it goes well.  Definately needs work though and as its WOF has also expired its officially illegial to drive it starting from just over an hour ag...

Yep happened 4 days ago whilst dropping mail bags off... guy tailgating me and then sed my driving was terrible and that he had "reported" me.  In NZ we have this system for dobbing in dangerous drivers thats less urgent then ringing emergancy 111.... known as *555 it can also be used to report non urgent crimes as well but is mostly for driving offences like tailgating, speeding etc.  Whilst its a good system it also has its drawbacks.... especially when abused. i agree it should have been used in this incident... wrong person rang the number... i also think this was pre meditated as he seemed far too composed for it to be unscripted.... anyway ill keep you posted on this cos if he actually did report me for doing nothing wrong then you can be sure this will not be the last you hear of it hehe.  im allready considering erecting a facebook page for roadrage attacks (this is a roadrage attack as it uses the police as a weapon against an innocent party).  There was no ...

Started off innocently enough but ended with dramas.  Caleb moved in pretty early on and lasted most of the season until mid may... after a few weeks he spent most of the time at his parents.  However he moved out properly in late May... effectively ending the era of me having boarders. With the exception of the dramas... which made a return in May the biggest event of the Autumn was me getting another car as the Sentra is showings signs of wear n tear.  Ill describe the new ride in more detail later on but lets just say that its something you wouldnt normally associate me with... but has its perks as a result. Anyway March and April were mostly trouble free but May was another story.  Several incidents only increased my hatred towards societa but this time something finally clicked.  To me it was like a perfect storm.  An unchecked realisation... that its over... no use flogging a dead horse.. obvious spititual connections too.... AND another thing occ...

Quite a dramatic month.  Lots of issues with traffic... several road rage incidents... other ppl having a go at me... and me trying to get them killed by the police haha... didnt quite happen as they fled when they saw the phone in my hand.  But there were other issues as well... lets just say that im pissed off with ppl in general.  but system related issues have also irked me and after seeing what happens with gaming/living arrangements etc have decided that its not gonna happen so have decided to finally start ending contracts.  so i guess May has somewhat been productive.... especially with a weeks hols in there... i managed to get even poorer haha... as i do over hols lol. Reached my highest weight this year so far as well of just over 90kgs.  the first time ive been OVER 90 for well over a year.

been an interesting hols... plenty of ups and downs... some good roadtrips... possibly the last for a while now... both roadies... and hols.  Colder weather making it much easier to sleep now which is great. i do like this weather and unlike last year my body is ready... well in terms of padding anyway... im up to 90 kilos again after going as low as 85kgs at one stage... i dont really wanna be much under 90 over the winter and definately not under 85kgs... you know, just incase i wanna go kitesurfing... remember when i used to do that?  anyway i did manage to stop one of my contracts albiet one of my smaller ones... the internet t stick... which ive had since 2008.  next to go will be either my vodafone mobile contract or my home broadband contract (which i had issues with the other day with the autopayment fiasco and also unable to change decoder for sky)... both are expensive so would be good to see the back of at least one of them anyway.  this of course will not...

Yep somethings you can only do when you are forced to do them... like this last week... im seething with rage over bullshit... im really peeved at issues and with ALL hints being dropped atm i really are a fool not to act.  looks like im gonna be stopping all my contracts sooner rather than later.  with my website allready being involuntarily zapped thanx to an issue with the autopayment i decided to slowly but surely stop the rest of my contracts... they include Gym Vodafone modem vodafone mobile vodafone home broadband/ sky telecom mobile as far as im aware that is it... however i have decided to serially stop all these.... issues with them being the following. Gym:  I hardly have time to go now and with the merger with les mills the place is now over twice as busy... and im not a fan of busy gyms.  Whats more last year i bought my mates benchpress kit so to be honest i can work out at home.  Im gonna be too fat for the fitness classes again this win...

Some RETARD was being a dick top me about a week ago and i didnt get his license plate number... so were unable to get the last laugh. As a result im gonna get the last laugh in other areas of my existance.  Decided to vacate my place of boarders and for the time being im rollin solo again at mine.  ive also decided to have the occasional short day at work as well. infact i had one today! Anyway on hols next week so hoping for some old skool outings to make a beast happy again.

With the exception of my website it was pretty uneventful.... pretty dead as has been the case this year.  However dramas have resurfaced with the neighbours... yep and its to do with the car... gee how predictable... im not selling the house or the jeep... and wont be selling the sentra yet either... stated that neither the sentra nor the jeep will be sold before they hit 300k on da odometer... in addition the jeep needs its South Head trip... for the record the jeephas done 215k whilst the sentra has done 260k.  The latest car  has done 115k.  Speaking of which as the website has ceased to exist i will be writing up reviews of the cars ive owned... all 5 of them... will also be reviewing the jobs ive worked at as well... yep expect lots of that sorta thing.... including of course the year writeups in past tense... ive written up 2010... will be writing up the others soon... plus of course the interim writeup for this year 2015... stay tuned... Anyway that was Apr...

Well there i am slowly syncing everything offline blissfully unaware that online the details are chenged every two years... which meant that they werent receiving my payments... POOS to that... so now im made to look like a dipshit cos of details expiring every 2 years... damn and that was a good service too and if i had known about the flowon effects that these changes had then i would have rectified it.  But oh well i guess thats yet another sign that its time for a hibernation.  cos of the fact that this regular payment was gonna be the LAST thing i stop i guess that now that its stopped its prob time i stop everything else... like the accounts with all my telcos and of course the gym. this is quite a huge thing... shall i go beast mode as well? beast mode is different to kitemode aka kiteapocylpse in that i havent gone back to kitesurfing... however it does mean i cease plans to fullfill the living arrangements... is this a sign? is God trying to tell me something?  a...

Yep i thinks its about time i made allowances for an escape from the modern day trial ive been having... in short the kiteapocylpse is one of the paths i could be taking in the next few months... the day of reckoning will be in August... prob at the end. It all depends on whether the lot casting tells me to get back into kititng or not... this depends on work finish, tide and wind but unlike previous setups i will NOT be passing up extra work... if all the planets align shall we say then it looks like somebody is dropping some BIG hints... but i have until end of august for this to happen. there are three other options available but there is also a wildcard entry... which is of course if i can get friends to share a flat with me... but dont hold your breath on that one... remember there is a reason why im open to the kiteapocylapse idea... im not exactly happy with the current "friend" situation at this present time... relationships destroying everything... taking mates a...

Still no ipad but anyway comps working so here goes... the big event of March was Caleb moving back in correction two big events.... the other was of course me purchasing another car.... and its an AUTO.  yes i know im a SELLOUT haha. It goes well... automatic has its plusses for around town but also major drawbacks... especially in a small engine car... no more darting infront of trucks to get into that little gap... there is just NOBODY home in the accelleration department from a standing start. Other than that it goes well... Anyway Caleb moving in is something that i was gonna allways give a try to... and i guess for me its challenge for me to see things through... especially after several false starts in the boarding department.  Its sorta followed on from Jan and Feb... this year so far has a been a dead year... quite dreary... im sorta resigned to the fact that the group is no more... the good times of several years ago are no longer and ive sorta now realis...

ok yea issues with phone and ipad causing hassle as you would expect. ok the updates are as follows.. Firstly Caleb is still with me but he hardly visits, let alone sleeps at mine as im experiencing issues with "home comforts" etc.  im not charging him any form of board so are in no hurry to rectify matters any time soon... infact if i find that i need more space then i will have to ask him to fully move home... but atm i seem ok with space. Secondly i did NOT get the transfer to beachlands... so im staying at Botany... this means that i wont be making any headlong dash back to kitesurfing any time soon.  the last time i went kitesurfing btw was in August of last year so its now been 8 months since my last kite sesh... a record for me. Thirdly no immediate plans to stay anywhere else.  if i do later on then it will prob be in with Andrea but to be honest i wanna see what happens in July at work. Fourthly i bought my mates car.... its a 1300 automatic 1999 Mazda ...

Ok let's recap.... It's apparant now that my Sentra is no longer fit for around town driving... However it can still do open road... At least for the time being. this means that I can do beachlands but will need to bike to work if I do botany... Which I have been doing for the past week. have yet to get a car but are pretty close to buying one from a workmate. Anyway this is a dramatic deviation from my normal choice of car but to be honest is suited for the around town style of driving I'll be doing as its for work mostly. I still wanna use the Sentra for kitesurfing if possible. now I may also be transferring to beachlands branch on a long term basis and may even live out there... If so I'll be flatting with a friend and will only occasionally visit Howick etc.... mostly to check on the house and buy cat food. Now this is only one option and depends on whether we can land the deal. In failing that there are three other options.... Staying home: now this is what im gon...

In what was a nutty Monday with all sorts of emotional crazies from me... Mostly as a response to the job transfer. anyway Txted caleb if he wanted to move in... Which of he does... So he's moved into the spare room... Now watch this space cos I ain't finished with the living arrangements yet. im still trying to get someone to live in the living room for either $50 per week and for labour (live for free but are basically a cleaner etc... They do the jobs i set them out to do. this is basically caleb atm until he gets a job... A labourer suits someone not working... So of course i tried Stipe... A very surprising lack of enthusiasm from him... Especially considering he likes the cats so much.... I know he had issues last time he was staying here... That was with someone who isn't here this time round. speaking of which I have NOT ruled out moving in with that person... HUH? Yea I sed I wasn't finished. if the transfer doesn't happen then im planning to tenant this pl...

was a pretty unclimatic month.  so i guess that can be classified as a good month lol. mind you the car is slowly getting nearer to scrap dealer territory... thats prob the biggest issue... and of course im still in poo financially. i did however make an extra payment off my mortgage... a first for me and its a good feeling. as mentioned before there are long term relocation plans but for the meantime im staying put... more interested in eeking out a prepping where i am atm... nice and close to everything but in a nice quiet Howick way. i really do like Howick to be honest... it really does have its charm... its sorta like small town... has that feel to it... with beaches nearby and about 5 minutes from farmland its nice... yet i have lots of shops within walking distance... so why leave? my intended destination isnt gonna offer me the same ammenities in terms of shops.  anyway lots of feb was spent being happy with what ive got and relaxing to be honest... and playing video g...

it was basically spent being fat and poor... in the same vein as the previous summer but this time even worse. it was also spent being kitesurf free... although i did do other water stuff. The drive to be antisocial kicked into an even higher gear with the return of the playstation... which has been weaving its majic.  it was a very non eventful summer... not hugely brilliant thanx to being so fat and poor... but no real bullshit either.  Caleb did stay here for a few days over new years but isnt here atm... even though its likely he will move back in at a later date. The onky real downer has been that white litening has been causing issues... a sign that perhaps i need to get another car.... but ill take that as it comes... atm im hoping to be all good.... until WOF day... which involved me taking it to the bridge... well attempting to anyway.

Right from the start the new attitude was spawned... actually it was from events on the first day that spawned the play hard to get attitude. It worked... the new attitude basically set the tone for the rest of the year... and 2010 would end up being the best year of the landlubber phase of 2008-2014. Anyway as mentioned before the playing hard to get immediately paid off and the new attitude of getting back to kiting instead of trying to be popular also paid off... not that i kited that much... cos suddenly i was popular... lols typical. This was actually my most social year believe it or not and it was the year that Stipe was finally unleashed on the new skool masses... ditto with Andrea.  But even 2010 was not without its dramas... i fueded with several ppl... Andrea and Eva mostly but this year at least the fueds were short lived. As mentioned before i dunno wherher it was a wise thing introducing the likes of Drea and Stipe to the group but then again the groups mostly disband...

2009 was one of the few years that i saw in alone... especially at that time. the desire was to get fully back into kitesurfing as by now i was up to speed at work and finishing early... but it never eventuated... infact i was even less into kiting in 2009 than i was in 2008. this was also the year where i went on a spending spree... bought some toys.... all of which kiting related. at the end of the year it was also the year that i bought wild willy... the suzuki escurdo... you know that storage facility obstructing the driveway for the last few years? yep back then it went very well too and an ideal kite machine. Anyway at the start was a continuation of the beach lifestyle... this year was also the year where i met most of my new skool friends... including being introduced to "mrs ms" place... and once that occured that was basically it... to this day i continue to go there in a regular basis... albiet not as much as 2010-2012 when i was over there allmost every day. i was...

haha ok well ive talking about it... so here it is... the "landlubber" or newskool years written up just as they were old skool years... should be fun. Of  course 2008 will allways be remembered as a transition year for me... transitioning from the 10 years of seperation phase to the aforementioned landlubber phase... which of course meant being dissillusuoned with kitesurfing somewhere along the way.   it started off all innocently though... sesshing it up at eastern beach as allways... talk of maccas being open 24 hours got me all full of hope as graveyard shift worked great at greenlane when i worked there.   Let me say this i was certainly not planning to end the year as a postie thats for sure.... to do that i was allways sed two things needed to happen... kiting had to turn to shit... and my job at maccas had to turn to shit. It was going well at first as crew... then i started getting frustrated with the wind pissing me around. Then i got promoted into management a...

Well nothing hugely dramatic... infact this year so far has been noted for its slow suffocation styles... which is good cos it finally means im putting pen to paper and putting theory to practice... i still have an anger problem so instead of trying to deal with the anger problem itself im now dealing with the underlying cause... ie getting rid of things that piss me off... similar to my "i dont have women trouble cos i dont have a woman" vibe... infact its the same thing... and his is a well known and at times unpopular feature of my personality... ill choose to avoid things alltogether as opposed to dealing with the problems as they arise.  Of course im refering to phones here as an example... two fits of rage caused bu technology playing up... two smashed phones. got two cheap phones to ease my contracts into oblivion... yes im now on that slow slide to "OZ"... ie NOT OZ of you get my drift... ok ill govt it away....the "OZ" thing im talking bout is act...

ok heres a recap... i didnt go to mrs ms to see in the new year... and caleb DID go out... so like 2014 i DID see it in alone... actually correction i didnt see it in at all... i went to sleep haha... yea thats what i think of this new years thing... unless you have the desire to really wanna change shit then these years will remain the same. anyway ive been doing lots of thinking about the socalled "oz incident" that i was chatting about... i will discuss this in greater detail as well as writeup past tense reviews for 2008 - 2014. My place needs time alone with me... i need to get the Mascularium all spruced up for a potential tenanting... infact the air quality at my place is so bad that ive asked Caleb to head back home for the time being until its all sorted... he too admitted that its very hard to sleep at mine cos of the dust. its either dust, mould, or pollen thats causing the problem... all of which ill be able to suss in the  ext few months... cleaning the ceilings,...

to be honest what can i really say? a year with a 4 in it.... mmmmm  it started off with a fullon rage and desire for revenge after a bad 2013. to be honest this rage was a mixed blessing. yes sure it got me out of the shit of 2013 but then started its own up. lets look at the two bugbears that have plagued me ever since i started at post... finances and weight. now these two areas should have majorly improved with a job like post but instead they havent thanx to my bad lifestyle... just goes to show how much life is about how you make it.  anyway the first half of 2014 saw huge improvements in both areas... infact it was the first year since 2011 where my weight fell below 80kgs... not only that but i was disciplined with my savings. however i was unable or shall i say unwilling to let go of former hurts and that plus some other issues caused me to relapse... infact by years end i was in an even worse position than at da start... which was not cool. this was a year where i tr...

not a very good month... a contiation of no money and being fat... plus dramas with the car and even a half hearted suicide attempt... but realised so many ppl hate my guts... and would be stoked at my passing. not keen on making them happy so suicide is sorta outa the question.  most of the  month was spent not working... when i was working i was very very slow... but that worked well as the late finishes worked in my favour. on da plus side im getting into bikes more... bad shits all good so long as you learn from it... and im getting so angry now that change is inevitable.