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ok here you have it.... The year which to be honest had sod all good things happen.   This nightmare I am living was personified by 2015... When nothing really good happens it really kills a year... You can handle bad shit when good shit happens too... But 2015 didn't dish up much good stuff... And it flopped despite the fact whilst it had bad things happen it wasn't hugely dramatic. Living arrangements once again a problem although mostly drama free in 2015.   Stipes friendship came to an end in July and to this day we still haven't spoken. It would be nice if we could reconcile but it's unlikely to happen... my mental states pretty shot and has worsened in 2016... to the stage where I'm over living... Like genuinely over living... Suicide for me would be a legit way out... Hanging would be the method.  2015 was a very morbid year and 2016 is the death throes... Yes this write up includes a different 2016 so far.... But seriously hellish downs.   2015 had one plus ...

Ok 2014 as mentioned before was FULL of Dramas... Certainly not a boring year and whilst it was turbulent it also had a lot of good times... Infact the mid period was very good! in contrast the beginning and the end went pearshaped... I also managed to get below 80kgs in the good part... A first since 2011 so 2014 really had some things about it which not even the likes of 2012 and 2013 could match. Unfortunately good times didn't last And my unstable mental state meant that I relapsed and my weight ballooned as a result especially when Calebs girlfriend at the time did an unsuccessful living arrangement at mine. Unfortunately this was not the last time I would pay dearly for opening my doors... Anyway Stipe and I reconciled at the beginning of the year and our friendship would remain intact for the remainder of the year. Another plus of this year was me working at beach lands... Once again a real positive in the somewhat horrendous years of 14 and 15. At the end of the day 2014 se...