2015 summary

ok here you have it.... The year which to be honest had sod all good things happen.  

This nightmare I am living was personified by 2015... When nothing really good happens it really kills a year... You can handle bad shit when good shit happens too... But 2015 didn't dish up much good stuff... And it flopped despite the fact whilst it had bad things happen it wasn't hugely dramatic. Living arrangements once again a problem although mostly drama free in 2015.  

Stipes friendship came to an end in July and to this day we still haven't spoken. It would be nice if we could reconcile but it's unlikely to happen... my mental states pretty shot and has worsened in 2016... to the stage where I'm over living... Like genuinely over living... Suicide for me would be a legit way out... Hanging would be the method.  2015 was a very morbid year and 2016 is the death throes... Yes this write up includes a different 2016 so far.... But seriously hellish downs.  

2015 had one plus side to it.... Work. I was one very slow worker in 2015 but I didn't seem to care... Did lots of beach lands... a trend that unfortunately didn't make it much past New Years... making me ask the question.... Is there REALLY such a thing as paranoia?  Maybe the feelings of everyone being against you are because they ARE against you.  Sorry but I don't have much evidence to prove otherwise.  Seriously got that rope ready just incase life becomes that horrible. Let me say this.... Nice guys finish last? Nice guys go to JAIL....

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