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ok you may have seen my prelim writeup that i did in late August... well here is the big one. FRIENDS: Ok a mixed bag! haha its not all bad news! surprise surprise.  yes i have fallen out with lots of ppl due to slander and envy... cos thats EXACTLY what occurs amoungst idiots of low value.  i have majorily publicised my issues with certain WOEmen so i will not go into detail in that area. But 2013 was a year where i started falling out with MALE friends... infact in general i had more dramas with males than what i did with women this year.  BY FAR the biggest drama was me falling out with Stipe... initially it was small fallings out where we reconciled after a few days or weeks.... but in September we fell out for the last time and we have not spoken since. Its OVER. This is by far the worst thing that happened this year... remember this is someone who was my best friend for the best part of 18 years.... and its gone now.... all cos of the same bullshit thats destroyed m...

a step backward this month! the worst thing that occured was that my car was crashed into whilst i was doing the mail.  It was a month where i was angry in general... with the impression that im being unfairly treated... ive found similiar experiences in the past to be based on FACT.... ie i was ACTUALLY being mistreated.  Paranoia occurs for a reason... it doesnt just occur! Something tangeable sets it off! and i KNOW i am allways being treated like shit.... ALLWAYS. It certainly put a bad end on what was a pretty good last quarter of 2013

still losers saying shit about me and the number of ppl i dont trust is growing... so next year i will be taking drastic action.  In other totally unrelated news my car has been crashed into whilst i was delivering the mail... it was a hit and run... cowards drove off without leaving details... im not gonna rant anymore about it but as it looks like a high speed crash im just gonna lovingly remind ppl to slow the fuck down! lmao. its in a builtup area and seriously ppl who wanna speed should go to the drags or pukekohe or somethin... public roads are not the place to do it. anyway looks like im covered via work as it was work related so hopefully it wont cost me but thinking of making a huge spiked bullbar and bolting it to my towbar only whilst im doing the mail... would be illegal whilst driving. Hey im SERIOUS dont laugh lmao... im gonna do this as whats to stop it from happening again?

With me regularily back at mrs ms again its safe to say that my weight and financial position arent anything flash. November saw me hit rock bottom and whilst spring was much better than winter for dramas they did return somewhat at the end there... prompting extreme measures i will be implimenting next year.  For most of the spring i had some hope the the tribe could reunite and that we could all be friends... but November taught me that flogging a dead horse is just a waste of time and its now up to the maggots to do their job.  The biggest casualty is of course my 18 year friendship with Stipe... which is now well and truly dead and buried

November saw a return of certain unwanted idiots... which in turn led to renewed anger and a desire to fully clense my existance of cretins and spastics.  For the most part this month was all about doing nothing in particular as i was on hols for most of it... Ironic as the renewed bullshit associated with certain losers has prompted me to impliment some of the most harshest measures yet which will be unleashed in 2014... whats this gotta do with work? quite a bit... lets just say that TYPE 1 plan will be put off indefinately and TYPE 2 implimented which of course is the "camp  on the bike" approach... lets just say this... the losers that im refering to are NOT at work.  It seems that work is the new kitesurfing for me.... no surprises to hear that i didnt kitesurf at all this month. Splashes kittens are growing up nicely... ive had a few friends who have expressed interest however they are too young to make the decision themselves so we are having delays as allways......

Was gonna return this week but financial issues and the usual issues with my kitegear have stopped any return to the sport which once dominated my spare time.  The upcoming summer break for schools plus the warm weather has traditionally put me off kitesurfing over the summer and this year is no exception... hopefully instead i can put the time to good use getting my gear sorted for a return in Feb when the school kids go back to school.  I am meant to be changing mail runs next month (we normally have 3 months on each run)... my current run suits VERY small hours... ie me giving work away but cos of a crazy budgeting system schemed up by me in an effort to slowly wean me off modern technology... i decided to crank the hours for the most part... finishing late as a result.  However next time round on that run as well as for the rest of the week i know what to do.  Anyway this NEXT run is another TYPE 1 or "small hours" run... TYPE 1 runs are when i dont stick to the ...

The demons of this year are starting to revisit... so ive decided to unleash the beast. Now that im back at work its the prime excuse to go into my cave and dream and scheme. Anger and only anger is gonna dig me out of my hole. Its worked before... and there is a whole lot more this time round! In other news on the home front ive decided to give the kittens away... i still have them atm but are looking to see if friends are keen... i will not be giving them away to randoms unless it is a friend of a friend.  That way i dont have to deal with ppl in my house which as you know i DESPISE THAT. Speaking of potential nasties my neighbours at number 7 (not the side that complains... thats number 5) have decided to rent out their place.  I was hoping that Aston and Emma could move in there but the landlords were hinting that they dont want any of my friends there... do they have an issues with young ppl? young males? mmm maybe, maybe not but if so then their logic confuses me as ...

Ok as mentioned my attitude has changed towards certain ppl... a lot quieter... i know who my friends are and as a result October was a pretty good month.  Infact the only real issues was at work... which as of late has been featuring quite a bit in things that are bugging me... basically it seem allmost impossible on this run to make my hours so quite tempted to quit trying to crank up huge hours whilst on this run and instead get some early finishes and do some kitesurfing? who has a TUI i can chug? lmao YEA RIGHT haha... ok maybe not kitesurfing but watersports and rec of some sort after work... well im not exactly gonna be feeling the cold with my weight atm which has now hit 90kgs again.  In other news im sleeping in my living room atm which is interesting.  Also SPLASH gave birth... if you havent allready then check out my cat blog which should have a link if you go to my profile page.  Finished the month off with Halloween which was different to previous years...

yep indeed updated online and frequently is this new page. the address is www.itswhatcatsdo.blogspot.com

As you may have read on my website www.mtuckster.com i am gonna be live updating 3 of my pages. im allready live updating birthwatch which is my cats blog when they are expecting kittens. The other 2 im planning to update online (live) are chemdiary and my sportsblog which is basically all the active stuff i do... the kitesurfing is blogged seperately but will be refered to from the sportsblog page

A marked improvement compared with the dramas of the winter.  It also signalled a return to scotts place where ive been hanging out lots... David is stoked about this and it also meant a return to IPW although its just him and me atm who go.  Stipe who until the last day of sep was only keen on hanging out with me has decided that hes not gonna associate with his new skool friends anymore... which is why until the 30th sep was prepared to make an exception when it came to me as weve known each other for ages.  However on the 30th he made it clear via another friend that he doesnt wanna associate with me anymore and that he will threaten police action if i try to hang out with him (prob in the same vein as when he called cops on David in July just after he went in the loony bin). Speaking of police action it appears that Debbie DID call the cops in regards to the cats... not so much Digit but the mystery black cat that we are allegedly accused of also stealing. Anyway when...

Ok as you know last month we had all that carryon with my flatmates mother accusing us of stealing cats... which of course we didnt do.  Anyway she sed the council was coming round as my property was untidy bla bla bla and that my neighbours sed i was crazy.  I then spoke to my neighbours bout this and they sed she never sed anything to them... so yeah she was bullshitting as allways.  She also sed that she went to the police bout the cats... we also assumed that cos she was bullshittin about the neighbours that she was also bullshitting about calling the cops.  We it actually turned out that she DID call the cops... We gave our side of the story in regards to Digit but then the topic of the second cat came up... we never saw this second cat.  As it turned out it was SPARKY... which Debbie GAVE US in June.  Anyway by the end of it the police admitted it was "petty" and whilst we had to give sparky back the cops realised we hadnt done anything wrong and once...

I am LOVING Queenstown. Such an Amazing place and such a great place for my brother to get married in. I will definately be coming back here and even have plans to ressurect the plans for a group outing... which was first concieved when i went to OZ... at a stage when things were much better between the members of the "Tribe"

As you are aware i will be heading back to kitesurfing next week.  Thats been a plan of mine for a while.  But there is one other aspect of my existance thats been neglected as of late... my gym training.  Last year i had surprising success with powerlifting which whilst not surprising considering my build (im quite stocky) but surprising considering my recent lack of conditioning.  also you mite be surprised to know that i get embarassed quite easily and i think its cos i take my appearence too seriously which will DEFINATELY surprise ppl.  Yes believe it or not i DO TRY and present myself neatly... yes indeed i should be sticking to my day job. But seriously what a revelation tonite... this whole new page has been opened... and it all seems to fit into place.  So in short i have officially decided to get back into powerlifting AND kitesurfing... which is gonna be interesting but unlikely to cause an issue as the extra weight i may gain by powerlifting sho...

haha 3 in a row... i have outlined the first two events on my NEW blog mtuckster.wordpress.com but its cos of the THIRD event that ive decided to enter the details on here. 3 events... the silver wedding party occured last nite at Totara Park. event 2 will be my brothers wedding this sat nite in queenstown event 3 will be my return to kitesurfing... or put it more bluntly... "timeless watersports" this is an overview... events entered in detail in next few entries.

OK now on a brighter not  you may have heard me talking about and event that occured ages ago but i had never gotten around to writing it up... I am of course refering to Leanas 21st... one of the few females of that age who will actually INITIATE a conversation with a horriable piece of shit like myself (sori but thats what ppl view me as).  such an act is worthy of the highest praise and being inivted to her 21st was an honour and the party itself didnt dissapoint i can assure you. HEAPS of food and good times with great workmates... the ppl at work really are cool.  I guess thats what happens when you have a cool job like being a postie... no stress means no dramas? no dramas, no trouble and no hangups... even though ppl were drunk... mmm being drunk doesnt automatically make you a monster... at the end of the day its the person whos ultimately evil, not the beverage... and my fellow work mates are certainly not evil. took the "lads" to town afterwards... where...

ok here goes i had just got home from somewhere... this was about late June early July and i heard a meowing outside... thinking it was sparkie i opened the door and this big fat tabby cat was standing there... it had the 5 toes and the classic meow that Digit had... but had a strange coller.  Now Digit had gone missing from Debs place several weeks earlier, not long before she came over to give us sparky... as she was aware that Aston and Emma had moved in... prob about a week or so before things turned REALLY sour between debs and us.... the classic was that incident where debs and dayna came over and had a go at emma... i was yelling at aston to get them out before i did something i would regret lmao... this was early June... several weeks before Digit appeared on our doorstep. We did think it was strange Digit turning up but cats have been known to find their way back to previous residences... we also thought that Debs herself may have dropped him off but considering how much...

ok a change of pace... a change of mood... it seems that im not the only one that wants to get back to the womb... several guys from Mrs ms house are also keen on manly stuff as well... had a great arvo with Aston, Boris and Nathan out at little bucks today fishing and kayaking... SWEET... it would be nice if more ppl from mrs ms house got into wholesome things like the outdoors cos that would mean i can still hang with them without compromising my lifestyle... as ive never fallen out with them... they certainly have NOT screwed me thats for sure.  Anyway that latest outing will be on both social inc and sports as i didnt really do anything but watch and eat lmao.... but at least my shoulder was up to the task of putting kayak on the car... no easy task at ther best of times.  i will be explaining the cat saga cos i wanna give my side of the story... and then ill drop it and leave the rest for the cat site... without the rants... will be a story instead.

It was a mild winter imo with no really horrendous days... certainly not in terms of temps anyway... then again there wasnt any days over 20 degrees either... oh hang on there mite have been in early June but none in August which is when you get them as well with the springlike sunshine.  But hey thats ok cos the hearts were cold... all started when Aston and Emma moved back in got bullshit after bullshit after bullshit and then there was THAT incident which has sent me back to the water... that was the LAST STRAW... and yes i will be coming clean on this incident  in a seperate post... will also be on my cat website as well as it involves cats... namely one that used to live here when things were much better between me and this person.  Aston and Emma are not the problem... its all the outside interference mostly from Astons family but its EMMA they try to influence... this is in a similar fashion to what happened last year when i evicted them but i made a joke that if a...

Ok this has seriously been one SHIT month... haha makes July look amazing to be honest... i partially dislocated my shoulder, been accused of all sorts of crimes under the sun.... all over me allegedly stealing a cat.... accusations?  FUCK THESE COCKSUCKING LOSERS... my time with that crowd are OVER... some have allready been permantly removed from my presence... me getting back into kitesurfing will ensure the rest follow suit.  seriously i CANT STAND idiots who spread nasty rumours about me behind my back... back to kitesurfing it is... itll be great to hang with ppl who have a life again. One of the few outings that could remain... at least intitially is the IPW outings... but that was a debacle last nite as i couldnt find the lynfield rec centre... but lets be honest this wouldnt have happened if we could all get along... if stipe got along with david... and and all that shit at davids place wasnt stirred up by that retarded cos last year (until those 'golden oldies' get...

Ok lets be bloody honest.... THIS YEAR HAS BEEN SHIIIIIIIIIITE WEIGHT: First time ive been over 90kgs, first time ive been 200 pounds... so far i havent been anywhere close to the 80kg mark... recently i have had some success at getting my weight down... to 85 kilos... like you know somethings wrong when i start thinking of 85kgs as light lmao...  not only have i been heavy but my upper body is SHOT... so far none of the powerlifting action that occured last year... where i was at my strongest allround body ever... (in 2007 i was much stronger in the arms but weak virtually everywhere else). This year i have been seriously out of shape... no definition in my arms... prob cos of sod all gym action... my cardio however is still improving... thanx to my job and my lower body as allways in in good running order... never been an issue with legs n stuff... its my UPPER body which is in a bad way. MONEY: wow seriously who would have thought that... 2004 min wage... saving heaps.... 20...

started off with as hiss and a roar with a trip to Mairaitai... but after that the dramas reared their ugly head.  First with Stipe and then with my neighbours.  Stipe and i had fallen out and remained so for the rest of the month. Neighbour trouble too with the cats and him accusing me of scratching his car. Usual bullshit.  Anyway i have decided that i will be moving out sometime in the next 5 years. My weight keeps setting new records with a top of 200 pounds.  Apart from one occasion where i sunk as low as 83kgs i have allways been over 85... whod have thought that 85kgs would be considered light for me... but it is now.  Dunno if its muscle or fat but i dont feel very strong so probably fat.  Braeden moved out near the enmd of the month so its just me and 4 cats atm. Its been a warm month... great weather... so different from last year... really has, no complaints.  Not hugely bad on the chem front either... speaking of which... went to the protes...

ok simply put ppl HATE my guts... ppl have been proven to be frauds so i AM OFFICIALLY back to my old self with a new skool twist... once shoulder is healed im fully back into kiting when work allows... with the exception of certain ppl i have NOT officially severed contact but with me preoccupied with my old haunts natural selection will play its part.... more to come

quite a stable month, quite consistant... consistantly bad. And now we have a new source of trouble... WORK. I have been DECLINED time off for my bros wedding holiday... thanx to THEIR screwup not mine.  Fortunately i did manage to salvage the actual wedding day itself so will be going down for the Sat 14th September. All gd but speaking of work i got unfriended by a person who i thought i was all good with... that set me off in a way that i didnt expect and i have been ANGRY ever since.  Also CALEB has been a pain in the ARSE... seriously i hate EVERYONE now.... just leave me the FUCK alone.  Cos of all the bullshit i have fast tracked my re entry back to the water... trying to make a it a daily thing now.... just to get away from everything.  Did have some GOOD news though... i FINALLY got my 80lb crossbow :P

ok my crazy peeps it is i NUTCASE CAPTAIN INSANO coming to you LIVE from the.............. POOMASTER..... i am typing this up from the ipad and sitting on the shit slurper, the royal throne of the retard house. After all this IS what a tablet is for isnt it? hehe. Anyway whats been happening.... LOTS of stuff but thats for another post.... i have been updating stuff on my website www.mtuckster.com so expect some action in that area too.... the plan is to basically cease the rants on facebook and keep em on here.... but as you know old habits die hard. In my current state it is soooooo tempting to have a good RILE on the book so after i get my feeling i delete it soon afterwards hehe.

Seriously PEEVED eh. Now im getting shit at work... i put in my time off over a month ago so i can go down to Queenstoewn for bros wedding and they LOST my application form and as a result i now miss out cos others have now put in for hols in Sep... when i first put the form in no-one had applied yet so it was cos of THIS screwup that i miss out.  Of course i was PISSED OFF and contemplating resigning if mum was gonna get all peeved about it but she sed just try and get the sat off for the actual wedding which i have put in for and may still get off.  Work is just the latest in a LONG LONG line of things to irk me as of late.  Never before have i felt so pissed off with everything (and believe me ive been peeved in the past). Im slowly but surely with drawing from society... even with work i keep to myself... mostly workinjg huge hours... occasionally doing things like kitesurfing etc when conditions dictate and mail is light.  This is rare though and normally th...

Aston and Emma moved back in and  its been going well.... with them anyway.  Everyone else has been on my case... this month REALLY went to the dogs in regards to others.... fallen out with a large number of ppl... and yes Stipe is once again one of them... didnt take long for us to fall out again... lasted most of the month and we are still not friends a time of this writeup.  But others have irked me as well.... fallen out with them before but never all at once... no fault of mine though... it never is... they have issues with me as allways.  As Aston and Emma are back i have decided to put the watersports comeback on hold but may still head out on occasions... of course still ontrack to go to Queenstown in sep

Fall 2013 was expected to be a season of isolation as it was assumed at the end of Feb that things had gone down the shitter with virtually all of my friends... and indeed i havent set foot at Skots place (aka grand central or mrs ms place) since the IPW outing in late Feb.  And indeed Stipe and i have had major issues... however thanx to the internet stick i loaned Aston i have kept in contact with him and Emma and now it looks like they are both gonna move back into my place... all good with me btw... i need someone to housesit the cats whilst im away in Sep. But there has been a definite shift away from everyone and even a shift back the oldskool ways of kitesurfing, windsurfing etc. Weatherwise it was hot and dry mostly... quite a bad drought occured in March but it has been wet ever since so drought over hehe. 

Stipe and i fell out again... as a result i missed his 40th... a classic example of how i get treated by ppl.  other ppl get away with far worse... but i get punished for everything... this is basically it now... by the end of the month he came crawling back but im still under no illusion that we are friends... imo it IS over... there is no genuine friendship between him and i even though on the surface we seem to be friends.  I basically dont hang out with much of the group anymore... only really for business reasons as i dont see any genuine friendships here to be honest... just users.  The only place where genuine friends hangout is at mrs ms place (grand central) but alot of my enemies hang out there too so in an effort to avoid further dramas im quite happy to be by myself.... unfortunately i cant fully sever ties with certain ppl so i have decided to rent my place out again... and Aston and Emma are more than willing to move back in.... basically money, internet, ...

April was a pretty good month drama wise with the exception of Stipe at the end.  The main issue with April was the fact that my cars WOF expired and i spent two weeks solely using my bike. i was actually transferred to howick team where i was put on a run not far from where i live... i also found that the walkways worked PERFECTLY for biking to and from work.... and my run.  I liked biking on the paths so much that i was allmost gutted when my car passed its WOF... but honestly its MUCH better financially using a car as a postie... something worth taking into account for those who are keen on being a postie.... get a car :P. A quiet month to be honest.  Stipe however getting on my nerves again.

March can be remembered for the hot dry conditions... for most of the month it was bone dry and temps were in the high 20s, bout 80F for you northern hemi folk.  However with no weather to clean the air the pollution was quite evident... from whatever source... something not really used to in NZ as we often have weather in places like akl and Welly to blow any pollutants away... including of course the controversal geoengineering programmes like skyseeding... which some believe may have even caused the drought... im not so sure bout that though... nature does thattoo. With friendships also hung out to dry thanx to the continuing fallout from last year i was quickly finding that i was really starting to hate society in general... it was like everyone was out to get me.  At one such instance i was sworn at by someone cos i allegedly cut someone else off... which as allways is bullshit... FUCK humanity.  So over this bullshit... and you wonder why i talk about prepping eve...

haha yea i dont understand what happened to the previous writeup but anyway here is round two... Jan started with a hiss and a roar with Braeden living with me... Wazza came over on NYD and him and i went wharfjumping with andrea.  strait into it. What followed however was more of the same.... i decided to not have a bday with friends cosd lets be honest i dont know who are my friends and who are imposters... Stipe fell out with me soon afterwards all cos i took too long at work one day... see this is the bullshit i have to deal with.  At the end of Jan i was STILL enemies with Stipe. I however still hung out occasionally with mrs ms household as i have been and allways will be friends with them. Work is going good though and weather too has been good. Got into a new sport as well... guns... getting more and more weapons... nothing major atm but things like 50lb crossbows can be quite potent.  Currently having fun shooting cans n stuff.  Other weapons inclu...

the aroma of burnt flesh... yum yum yum.  yep that basically summarises the happs as of late.  Ok well where are we? yes indeed Emma and Aston are BACK.  The three of us thought this was a great idea.  They werent really enjoying the place they were staying at... and i are realising that i will be needing housestitters in September when i go to Queenstown to see my bro get married... so they moved back in hehe.  Then no sooner do they move in and sudden;y im public enemy number one again... infact im offside with more ppl now than i ever have been (if you exclude the huge number of kiters i was offside with in 2004... and prob still are as ppl who hate me seem to allways hate me). im not gonna name names but those who have been following my posts should be able to make some accurant guesses... whats different this time is the fact that im offside with all of the above... whereas before it was only a certain group... now its everyone basically. anyway i will be...

hey quick update.... mobile entry so will keep it brief... its been an action packed few weeks since my last update here. got several summaries to write up. im no longer living alone and im heading to queenstown for my bros wedding. C YA LATER!

WOF time. one of the worst bits of legaslation ever to hit this country. anyway ive been grounded for the last 2 weeks having to bike to and from work. a large part of my pay is made up of bag and petrol allowance which of course you dont get when you bike out so its hurting me financially not having a car. on the plus side im losing weight and cos i stay at hme im spending less money. anyway im about to head to EB motors to get the check... im expecting to fail as there are isues with my lights but i just wanna know what else is screwed

sup ppl? hey im updating my website so will have new stuff online soon. the main drama for me atm is my car. its currently illegal so i have to watch where i take it. hoping to get a WOF sorted for it this week. anyway signing out... will also be getting a march summary hooked up as well :p

got to the stage now where im basically gonna crawl under a rock and stay there. i sorta allready do that with the ps3.... but to be honest i need to get back into kitesurfing again.... just to take my mind off guns. Judging from what my parents were saying today i would have a hard job convincing them that i need a gun. and unfortunately they need to ok it in order for me to get issued with a licence according to the arms code. So ive basically given up on the idea of firearms... accordingly my FB page will have MUCH MUCH less gun content from now on. Of course this also means that i can start slowly but surely disconnecting myself from society. I had basically two very different plans flr my next abode.... the first one was to get lots of land, get into guns, get into hunting and stay connected to society... i sorta have to if i own guns as im in regular contact with the police. The second option is a full blooded disconnection from society... taking place over several years.

This summer has been known for its excellent weather which of course means sod all rain, high temps and lots of sun.  Lots of days over 25 degrees and hardly any rain especially in the latter part of summer.  The flip side to this of course is that we are now in a drought and impending water restrictions are in the plans.  In other news as with last summer it has been filled with issues over friends and in the latter part of summer i decided to cease hanging out at certain places... prefering instead to stay at home or do big hours at work.  The switch to longer hours at work which was both voluntary and involunatary has meant that i have little time to be tempted to hang at these places... but i can still hang with ppl if they are keen... despite what you may think i have not severed my ties with anyone but unless others wanna hang im quite happy to keep to myself.... this was caused by events over the summer and basically has been several years in the making. ...

Ok well all i can say is that huge upheavals in the freinds department... excessive dramas combined with excessive poverty (my poverty) has fully stopped me from hanging with friends... especially at grand central (Scotts place). In saying that i have sorta reconciled with Dayna and Jess and are friends with Stipe again.  Then on the last day of Feb i fell out with Debs (Aston and Daynas mum) over something i sed that was taken the wrong way... typical... ppl think they can get away with saying what they like to me.. but when i do it its a crime against humanity.  I talked about this before... usual ppl bullshit... FUK THEM.   Anyway weatherwise it was very very dry... allready the finger has been pointed at geo engineering and particulary SAP aka chemtrails.  We havent had rain for several weeks now which even in summer is rare in Auckland... but has happened before... not all these weather events are man made but chemtrails and rain clouds as ive mentioned befor...

my first kitesurfing session of the month today. im enjoying the peace and quiet now in terms of ppl at my place but i still have 4 cats to find homes for. dramas with neighbours again. no rush though

Well that was the plan for 2013 that i made at the end of 2012... and unlike other new years resolutions i am actually delivering on this promise... i have been a VERY VERY angry person so far this year.  Still yet to kitesurf... i tried kitesurfing but the unbelievable happened... i am TOO FAT for my harness... but to be honest it wasnt really windy enuf so no big loss.  Initially the plan was to cease hanging with the group but  Andrea has sorta come up with some ideas that has given me and idea... still hang with ppl... but on my terms doing things that i wanna do... and some new ideas too... thanx to Andrea.  A few insane ideas have come into her head... and they sound pretty cool.  Like myself shes sorta trying to get back to her old haunts... me with the kitesurfing and her with her martial arts.... particularly pro wrestling which she used to do back in da day. Now shes keen on giving kiting a go and to square things off shes keen on getting me into pro w...

Heck it only took a week and allready ive fallen out with Stipe... hes REALLY pissed me off this time... acusing me of trying to break up him and his long disatance girlfriend... she denies that and to be honest he knows its a lie as well... hes just annoyed that i sometimes finish late at work and cant hang out with him.... lets not go there hes been screwed up ever since he met this girl Crystal... who incidently is the person whos telling him to "get over it" more than me, more than Andrea, more than anyone else.  anyway hes blocked me on fb and refused to go to Davids bday cos i was gonna be there... incidently apparantly dayna did the same thing lmao.  Davids party was great... went to Dennys, had a huge feed and he told me that jess... who as you may be aware is the third person on my spacial list (of ppl who i dont ever wanna see again... the newest  addition of course being Stipe) has had her baby and has been BANNED from mrs ms place (aka grand central). this of ...

Ok dunno if i will write it all up in one installment but here goes hehe.  As most ppl im aware of had a quite a shite 2012 i would in keeping with the spirtit of beinbg different LOVE to say that 2012 kicked ass... but unfortanetely mine too sucked.  here it is broken down..... WORK: The start was spent in Howick... transferred to Botany in late feb.  My workrate immediately improved for a while... then i started taking AGES to do my mail and by the end of the year was pretty peeved and at times even contemplating a return to Maccas.  But i still enjoy my job... even if i have been finishing late.  This really has been the determining factor for virtually everything else this year as it has prevented me from rushing headlong back into kitesurfing... KITESURFING: With the exception of little bursts i really have lost all my enthusiasm for kiting... and the only reason why i have those little bursts is when yet another problem occurs in other areas of my ...

My obsession with the madness of serial killers and mass murderers often had me at the end of november looking through youtube docos about famous murderers like Bundy, Dalmer and one of my favourites the french dude who started it all... Gilles de Rais.  i often take a look into the macabre... remember not so long ago i was continuously watching Iraq beheadings of hostages over there... not on youtube... too graphic for that but on sites like Ogrish etc.  Now obsession of the minds of serial killers initially and then over to spree killers and whether these violent acts of hate were ever justified.  After watching youtube vids aplenty i came to the conslusion that there was NO justification for any of those killing sprees.  By the end of November i even to the conclusion that not even the Collumbine killers violent acts were justified.  And the others were just acts of rage.  As allways the political hornets nest gets stirred up every time mass killings tak...