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ok haha as i lie on my mattress in my very small bedroom with my nose runnin thanx to an allergy to something... dunno whether its hayfever or a dust issue. but anyway im about 3 hours away from the first of two work shifts to cap of the beast that was 2014. Yes there will be a year in review, plus of course one of December. Now 2015 new years is sorta gonna revert back to the social celebrations that i tend to have.... as is the case with many other ppl. wih the exception of last year... where i saw in 2014 at home alone the only other year i can remember doin this in recent times is when i saw in 2009 at mine alone. 2010 was seen in at an oldskool friends place... actually correction i dunno when it was seen in as that was the year there was major lag with txting as i was meant to see it in at Pigeon mountain with Eva but missed out cos of txting lag.  2011 of course was seen in in Sydney with their amazing firework display. 2012 was seen in at Mrs ms place and 2013 was seen in a...

Yep just in time for the new year... my friend Caleb has moved in. hoping that this starts a perpetual boarding setup where someone moves in if he ever moves out. also there is an outside chance that another friend may move in as well later on next year

using the bike atm as car isnt ready yet... expected to be tomorrow but never totally sure. looks like the brakes are done and now they seem to be cleaning out the rust... now this holds out hope for the jeep when i eventually get it into the garage... Moons look like they are pretty general purpose... Jurys still out in regards to going to them for a WOF however... im starting not to trust garages now for WOFs... which means that im gonna end up doing the unthinkable... VTNZ.

despite my car being in exact same condition as last time it failed on 6 different occasions this time round... and if that wasnt enuf i know being screwed over by all n sundry over this debacle. let me get it strait... i am OVER the bullshit surrounding cars... to be honest unless you need a car for work, carrying stuff etc then i strongly recommend NOT having one eh. as the WOF checks get stricter, traffic gets worse and public tranny gets better (yes it is improving) i really dont see the point if owning a car inless its really necessary. unfirtunately i still need one for work... well its much easier to do extra work with a car. and if i get back into kitesurfing (which is a definate if i leave post) then ill need a car... so yes indeed still dramas galore... but with other stuff i really dont see the point of using a car.  My hols now ended... back to work tomorrow... im just about to get some sleep. Now my car MAY be ready and its gonna cost me another $300 to fix... will bri...

ok ill finally come clean and discuss the resoning behind something that ive been thinking about for the last 5 years... the plan to up tools and clear out. now whilst i have no immediate plans to do this i certainly wont rule it out in the future and the when/if will depend on several factors... infact 4... 3 bad ones, 1 good one... here they are SOCIAL RUIN: basically this means that i basically lose all my friends... either by falling out or departure.  despite my often negative impression of society i do have several good friends... but issues often get between us and with my often suspicious mental state atm im not really one to tolerate bullshit and my best times atm are times alone... and some of my mates have relocated. EMPLOYMENT WOES: one of the things that often stops ppl moving other than friends is of course WORK. is there jobs where you moving to? this aint really a factor when your current employment situation deteriorates though... especially when your unable to get...

hey so far so good... no real dramas. sure the car aint goin but i dont really need that and will try to milk it as much as i can in terms of this abomination known as a WOF.  Anyway im making good use of the gym... both of them as i have weights at home now. My weight is now starting to exceed 90kgs... and this is DESPITE the huge amount of cycling ive done so some of this weight could very well be muscle. Ill write the latest athletics session up soon.. which as you know is one of the 4 sports i may be doing next year... the others being gymnastics, aikido and pro wrestling. ill talk about those more in depth on my sports blog.  anyway its been mostly sunny for my holidays... im waiting for some rain teehee... its allways fun having it rain when you aint delivering mail in it. Ill also discuss the socalled "Aussie Incident" which of course involved me moving to OZ if things turn to shit here in NZ... and no i dont mean politically i mean personally... 3 bad things and 1 goo...

saw massive weight gain and financial ruin... the dark days of exactly a year ago... infact even worse this time. Started several sports including athletics but with the exception of Devon and Caleb it looks like the other friendships are on ice for the time being... citing several factors. the realisation that i am cursed in regards to relationships with other ppl needs to needs to be taken into account by those who continually ask why im such an outcast. it must be spiritual... i really am a despised person... thats a fact! show me any evidence to the contrary if you think im wrong.. i dare ya! Had several hols from work and even then wished i was working... currently on hols atm... infact its going well these hols thanx to a change in tack... much more staying at home this time round.... much needed... especially as this month has PROVEN TO ME THAT I AM DESPISED. nuff sed.... will be discussing the Aussie incident... which funnily enuf has nothing whatsoever to do with Australia now...

Hey guys it has just this minute ticked over to midnite which of course is SUMMER time. Anyway the last event to happen during spring was caleb asking to move in. now whilst i expressed interest when we chatted the other day i was refering to later on... NOT in a months time as he was hoping half an hour ago... assuming for his 18th bday. Anyway i will elaborate on that in a different article as i have yet to write up the "commune" sessions.  But this season also featured his girlfriend giving it a go at mine... with predictable failure.   Thats not the only drama that happened either... Stipe and i fell out for a bit there and certain other ppl the friendships "gone cold" even though there was no falling out.  However me and Jess have reconciled... finally determined that the issues arising from 2 years ago are no longer relevent nor were they even certain to begin with as its chinese whispers at best with ppl... and i routinely associate with others in the drama c...

Been on hols for two days now... but tomorrow im helping out at beachlands... which i have done several times this year. Back into holiday mode next week however... but dont expect too many outings... cars due for wof again so from the first i will be without a car until i get a wof

2 weeks worth to be exact... but these holidays are gonna be different... unlikely to be any roadtrips or anything like that... skools will be on hols.... so forget peace and quiet. so things will be different for me this time round. anyway they start next week... writing my athletics session up now... 

see told ya they were comin thick n fast... heres October... which was noted for a failed living arrangement... "commune 3" officially lasted a week in terms of actual paid up residence... all up about 3 weeks if you include moving stuff in and out... basically didnt work out... alot of false hope on my part to be honest... i thought it mite work out (the living arrangement i mean) but it was clear from the start that she wasnt happy here. anyway that was during my first hols.... the month was a shite month financially with big spending and weight gain but by the end i was adamant that nobody else will visit my place.... let alone live here. im a loner... im happiest when im alone... i dunno why... maybe its ill treatment by ppl... some ppl have treated me badly but most seem ok. i find an inner peace when im alone... maybe some thing spiritual... prob cos God knows im not distracted by others? mmmm . anyway the last day of the month of course is Halloween which unlike last y...

ok the big minus for this period was of ciurse my continued anger which has of course been a major issue this year when it was finally determined that my socalled friends are anything but. I later decided to discontinue using the word "friend" as imo the entity does not exist. but that was later on... i hadnt quite got around to doing that at this time. But i was an angry person... for the most part still pent up frustration from past (but unresolved) hurts. However new things did occur... most notably a suspected trespass by debbie in July. was gonna go to police amd trespass her but decided not to as no proof of it. i only take action like that if i KNOW FOR SURE and that usually involves seeing it myself... which the alleged incident occured when i wasnt there.... and had something to do with Emmas fridge... which as i write this is STILL at mine. But this wasnt a huge factor in the grand scheme of things as the majority of issues were unreleased frustration... which came ...

yesirree about an hour to go before im sorting mail again.  very unlikely to get any more holidays anytime soon... infact could even be my last holidays at post... see what happens but yea with summer around the corner all the skools breaking up soon... worst time to have a holiday imo... yep ill be crankin hours. i can still do stuff after work with these light evenings but forget things that cost money... unless yoir paying... one of my mates owes me ten outings in return for me helping him with his bike... he can take as long as he wants to shout me them but until he does the only outings i go on with him are ones he pays for or ones that are free haha. in amoungst all this work ill get those remaining writeups sorted.... a potentially busy week this week... not just with work but athletics and of course the 5th hobby and the potential of another new hobby tonite. once again not one of the big 4. the big 4 of course being athletics, gymnastics, aikido and pro wrestling.

was meant to be on hols this month but posponed till october now. anyway this month inckuded a falling out with stipe and then we reconciled again so short compared to last year. the end of the month was spent getting the place ready for caleb and his gf moving in.. spawning commune 3.  Workwise back on the mailrun i was on last year but having much better luck this time... big hours at work... continuing mostly until judgement day next year... ok not THE judgement day but the ine in regards to my job... i could be losing my job next year... gotta get ready for that. 

teehee finally got around to doin it.... trying my new washing machine out... a portable one... well used in motorhomes anyway... that uses sod all power and hence can be powered with an inverter... note the slow gradual shift to portable devices... one the things that this circus elephant has been doing since he started "running amok" teehee... see more of this in the future. next on the list is a portable TV... quite small and quite expensive but uses hardly any power and should still be ok for the ps3... which in itself is part of the new plans...

Mental illness got the better of me and at the beginning of the month i smashed several devices of mine cos they were slow or didnt work... yep definately residual anger left in my system. other than that it wasnt a terrible month by any means apart from the fact that i fell out with kitesurfing thanx to being screwed over on my latest session. have yet to resume kiting...

anyway apologies for the slackness.  i will of course writeup the two holidays ive had... hoth the one mentioned in last writeup and of course the one im currently on. also need to writeup a few monthly summaries and of course the winter summary which i still havent done... and its gonna be time to write up the spring one soon! lol will also be writing up the "run summary" as each mail run stint brings a change in attitude from me in regards to how much work i do... which in turn dictates what i do when i finish work lol. but anyway im allmost finished my hols... last one for a while i imagine. the other night i did the 5th hobby that i mentioned on my facebook page... its air rifle shooting and will be updated in my sportstuxx blog. im now currently here alone as the boarding situation didnt work out with calab and his girlfriend. i will elaborate in that in greater detail when i writeup my first hols as that was when the drama went down.  infact each holiday this year has b...

Expect lots of updates... a huge backlog of stuff on my blogs and of course my website

havent died just yet lol... haha sorry to dissapoint ya. Anyway will be posting updates and the writeups i havent yet done. Two things i will say now though... it looks like i will get my hols in about a weeks time so its highly logical that it will be then that i will start getting up to speed on the blogs and of course the website... which hasnt been touched much in the past few months. The ppl i plan to spend that holiday with are of course my flatties and my "second home" which of course is my amazing group of mates at mrs ms place aka grand central (on the kitty blog). One person who i was gonna hang with but wont be doin so now was Stipe as him and i have fallen out again... after he txted "punjas" to me in late Jan... signalling a reconcilliation after what i thought was the final nail in the coffin of our 18 year friendship i genuinely thought we would actually stay friends this time... but i guess not.... mind you it lasted 8 months this time.... a vast imp...

yep all those periods or blips in time... just another attempt to writeup whats been written up... but from a different perspective... this time something new... done according to the mail run im based on... cos believe it or not the run im on basically determines my day and hence how i exist teehee. Hey as a treat how bout i blog from when i started my current team back in Feb 2012. Also speaking of rereleasees... also plans are afoot to rewrite the most recent yearly summaries in the form of past tense... the last year written in past tense was 2007... part of the era known as the 10 years of seperation... teehee now dont give me ideas... oh damn its a good one... ill summarise the eras too as these are HUGELY different to each other and are actually interesting especially to those ppl who didnt know me when i was  in the 10 years phase.... which is most of my current friends i mite add.

Ok ppl July saw the return of some bullshit.... oh well i guess it took my mind off the mental problems for the time being.  It wasnt all that bad but basically ive just taken the good ol antisocial recluse thing ive been pimpin to a whole new level.  Now ive also blabbed on facebook that come the end of the year im gonna burn my place down with me inside if i dont fully get into kiting.  That is a true but not in a literal sense... thats short for "ok im fucked off with this bullshit, i aint happy with the status quo"... check the bible... this sorta thing is mentioned all the time... ya know puttin da flesh to death, takin up ya cross, cuttin off ya hand etc... all about removing shit from ya existance that fecks u up. anywayi have made a very unsuccessful attempt to fully get back into kiting... as mentioned before my place is a kiteboarding place... ever since i met these new "friends" ive had nothing but trouble and lots of it is to do with that 2 bedroom UNI...

Whilst no fresh dramas i did however see a return of the mental illness that i saw in late Feb.  Back then i assumed it to be work related but this time round work is goin well so its prob a buildup of all the rage that ive been feeling.  Ive made another decision to get back into kitesurfing... but at this stage i still needed to find my pump... in July ive made the decision to fully get back into kiting... more on that later. June wasnt a bad month... no real dramas apart from the mental illness i got.

With the exception of a shaky start involving me and Andrea it wasnt a bad quarter... happy endings at the end with the car chapter closed for the time being.  Seemed to do batter at work as well... especially when i changed to the central Botany run which i know so well... run starts just south of BTC and goes down all the way to flatbush and is basically flat. Speaking of which i will start up another summary this time related to the runs im on... stay tuned hehe. My weight stabilised at about the low 80s... at one stage it got down to 79kgs but for winter i dont really wanna be under 80.  The plan for summer of course is to be in the low 70s but that will involve fasting to chew up some leg muscle... but ill worry about that when im ripped but still heavy... at da mo im still festively plump.

A good month!  rounded out what was a good Autumn and what a happy ending at the end there with my car getting its WOF and fixed as well.  Anyway i changed mail runs onto a run im much quicker at and moved out of Andreas.  That didnt stop us two from hanging out though and we went to several places including a new bouncy castle place and of course parakai.  Shes back into it now... let da fun begin.  Ive also rediscovered my love of RC cars which admittedly is easier to do at this current time than kitesurfing... which suited maccas hours much much better. Anyway lets end on a highnote eh

but judgement still awaits. Car needs WOF at end of month or ill be without a car again in June as car wont be legal and ive been down that path before lmao. My website is sorta dormant atm because my computer is having trouble going online so cant really update my site www.mtuckster.com. However i can still do my blogs and the cat situation looks to take another turn as Emma is planning to leave my place and go to Andreas.... thats a big MAYBE though... as you know Splash and her kittens are at Andreas (aka funstation) and Emma is keen on one... Andrea may keep one, Eva is keen on one... infact she may have allready taken hers. Mark from work has allready grabbed his kitty (named him Marley) and either me or Emma will take the final kitten.... and Splash will be coming back to mine. So there ya go. But thats between Andrea and Emma to organise.... im staying out of it. If it does occur then itll work out well with the cats cos i dont think having 2 kittens will go down that well over ...

Yep currently without a car so biking to work atm. not really doin much else so basically at hme once i finish work. will be heading to work soon. 

ENRAGED!! what can i say? after quite a good Spring the rot quickly resumed once the heat came and was kicked off by some idiot running into my car whilst i was out doing the mail... i didnt think much of it at first cos work sed that insurance was gonna sort it out... i just needed to get quotes from garages... easier sed than done cos NOBODY was interested... too busy.. etc etc... this caused tension at work and being a paranoid person (do you fucken blame me?!) i assumed that i was gonna lose my job n stuff.  One good part of work that i enjoyed was the odd day at beachlands... LOVED IT! id do it again in a heartbeat.. with petrol money of course as it is a drive there and back. Me and Andrea had planned to hang out lots... especially as i started doing the run she lives on... but a perfect storm of events allmost destroyed our friendship and by the end of Feb all i wanted to do was get away from EVERYONE.. including her.  infact days later we actually DID fall out but th...

The first day of the month was the last day before my hols... and something strange happened... i was FAST at my job... yes i know scary eh... but no need to panic... cos once back at work normally quickly resumed and with the exception of the first week i was back to late finishes etc etc... yep certainly no fear of me getting anywhere or being anyone any time soon. The feeling that im being treated like shit was basically cemented in stone at the start of the month when Andrea spazzed at me over the kittens cos of a faulty internet connection.  This along with a slower than expected financial recovery has prompted me to move out of her place at the end of April.  The good news is that we had major success at rehoming splashes first litter. Speaking of splash... she ended up having her second batch at the start of the month but after initial fears that she misscarried i discovered her and her week old litter in the cupboard of the spare room... the one which Aston and Emm...

Seriously sometimes i just wish i lived in the US in order to own stuff like this... anyway enjoy this video of one of my favourite internet superstars doing gardening redneck style

Yep currently battling a stomach bug.... no vomiting so far but plenty of action at the other end... so much so that i wisely decided against working today. Anyway hopefully back tomorrow for the first of April... hopefully no fools. Will be putting a writeup for March soon and yes i havent forgot the summer one. Very quiet here without any cats bu that may be changing if i decide to bring one of splashes second litter home... which i will do if it means not having to use trademe.

Enjoying my time off work but looking forward to getting back into it next week.  i may trial these small and frequent breaks as opposed to 2 week breaks which leave you unfit and hence slow when you get back into it. Anyway March weather has arrived... meaning a noticable change in the morning temps... easier to sleep now... but still ok for early rises... my place tends to be quite warm which is a huge advantage over winter. As you are prob aware im semi staying at Andreas.  The main reason for this was the kittens but from reading my other blogs its clear that the kittens have been given away now.  But im not moving out of Andreas... im keen to stay there until the middle of next year... unless things like financial issues or fallings out with me and her (which allmost happened the other day) change this setup.  Im unlikely to annoy her the convential way because of the sheer fact that im not properly living there atm... but facebook with its ill communication c...

Well what can i say? DRAMAS which spawned a mental illness.... to be fair the mental illess was triggered a while ago... even last year but the symptoms came out this month..... this month also saw dramas with the kittens come and go.... and the kittens went to a friends place. That commenced an agreement to semi move in with Andrea as there is quite a few things that us two wanna do together but is slightly delayed due to andrea injuring herself and out of action for several weeks. Anyway innthe meantime the kittens are keeping her happy and im helping out around the home. The arrangement is working well so far.... and will work out even better when shes fully healed. Anyway my mental state got the better of me amd i smashed a few things in my house at the start of the month... since then my mood has been shakey and unpredictable and ive made an effort to avoid others. im still in a bad financial state but an improvement on previous months. one big winner out of all this (actually one...

woop woop and with it comes the end of summer for another year... i will of course be posting a feb writup as well asa  summer writeup.... a summer which was VERY turbulant. anyway in other news im off work next week so should be fun... allready bokked outings with mum nd another with stipe.... aston is also off work and andrea who ive sorta moved in with is still off work but injured so the stuff we do which is often physical wont be occuring... but im helping her out around the house and shes babysitting the kittens.... which has made the situation between me and my neighbours much much better

Caught in the act spotted a plane laying a trail to the NE of where i am currently delivering the mail... i took a pic below and then proceeded to look up the plane on flight radar... and there was nothing... so prob wasnt a commercial plane... PROOF of  dodgy dealings imo

The writings on da wall to be honest....as you allready know the shit has hit the fan in regards to the car. And in the last few days a new but familiar drama has resurfaced... and with familiar foes... the NEIGHBOURS. Once again the cause of the hostilities is my 4 legged friends which until now seemed all good with everyone. Anyway a perfect storm of hate encircled me.... a combination of envy, despair and immense anger along with with primal urge to NOT BE TRODDEN ON exploded into a tempestual fury which saw me trash my house and smash my front door in which resulted in the police being called.  As a result ive gone on a completely new path.... a path of self destruction... i will explain this later.... lets just say that the song i talked about last time is never far from my mind and here will be huge changes in my life... i will be removing lots of things eecially things that are costing me money... like expired contracts on things like phone plans, internet plans... gym membe...

A fullon month both with work and personal life.... attempts to get out of poverty and obesity have been successful... obviously by eliminating the thing that caused them both.... outings... both solo and social.  The social outings are basically dead anyway but i had to deal with the constant threat from solo outings as well as these are by far the worst now... as being an outcast actually increases these outings... for food only obviously as i dont go out for social reasons cos im an antisocial person. i have had a firery attitude... and in the middle of the month i found out that my car is gonna be written off... and this made me very very angry.... and has set my mood for the remainder of the year... rightous anger... getting the shit out... my anthem song is DESTROY EVERYTHING by HATEBREED... which talks about overcoming odds and getting crap out of your life thats holding you back.  Many references in the bible to this too... including the eye gouging and hand cutting ...

.... you better get ready.... yea im ready.... ready to kitesurf.... a classic example of the huge change in my attitude this year.... my return to kitesurfing really does have sinister motives... and once im fully addicted to it again then  i wont be hanging with ANY of my friends (genuine or fake... doesnt matter) unless they too kitesurf of course... yes i know this should be on my kitesurfing blog but out of necessity kitesurfing has INVADED my everyday life and unleashed a FURY against the infidels that dare slander me and harass me.... oh and if they dlnt get the message with my kiting then ill get the LAW involved.... the idea of having ppl who bully me thrown into the slammer gives me a STIFFMEISTA. yep ive warned ppl that this BEAST FROM THE EAST is reincarnation of his old skool ways.... ways that small minded cretins have not seen before. i really see no need to explain what actually set me off.... just read my past blogs amd you will find all the reasoning you nee...

Simply put thats the main reason for my return to kitesurfing... when i kitesurf im in the box seat as i call all the shots in regards to my relationships.  This may sound nasty and arrogant but it needed to happen because to be honest i dont know who to trust now.... beleive me it aint just the socalled "big 4" that i have issues with and ive been told by several ppl that im picked on because ppl see me as a soft target.... REALLY? well thats a bit stupid isnt it.... saying that to someone who is quite able to do something about it.  Thats why im back into kitesurfing.... so far its solely as a means of alienating my socalled "friends"... most of which i dont trust anymore.... and i certainly dunno which ones are genuine and which ones are just users and losers... well i dunno for certain anyway... but i have a pretty good idea... but kiting is the great filter as the ones who REALLY wanna be my friend will be prepared to do it on my terms ... all the whilst im not...

it really has been an enraged start to the year BUT its been quite productive. I have actually been turning my fury into fruit... and no shortage of things to enrage me. But these dramas were all spawned last year.... no fresh stuff yet... touchwood. The biggest drama atm is the ongoing bullshit with my car and THAT retard who caused THAT crash. As i will never know who did it.... unless he stupid enuf to pursue things legally.... or even stupider to do it violently. Not such joy though so i guess hes the one that got away. This flareup has been brought on by the latest bullshit with coverage etc... its not final by any means but i got some quotes... and it doesnt fill me with much joy. me and andrea have decided to both get back to our past hobbies... me of course is kitesurfing, for her its martial arts... shes done several including ju jitsu, aikido, kempo and wushu but shes also done pro wrestling training which is of interest to me cos as you know o watch a lot of pro wrestling li...