Destroying enemies with my Absence
Simply put thats the main reason for my return to kitesurfing... when i kitesurf im in the box seat as i call all the shots in regards to my relationships. This may sound nasty and arrogant but it needed to happen because to be honest i dont know who to trust now.... beleive me it aint just the socalled "big 4" that i have issues with and ive been told by several ppl that im picked on because ppl see me as a soft target.... REALLY? well thats a bit stupid isnt it.... saying that to someone who is quite able to do something about it. Thats why im back into kitesurfing.... so far its solely as a means of alienating my socalled "friends"... most of which i dont trust anymore.... and i certainly dunno which ones are genuine and which ones are just users and losers... well i dunno for certain anyway... but i have a pretty good idea... but kiting is the great filter as the ones who REALLY wanna be my friend will be prepared to do it on my terms ... all the whilst im not addicted to kiting that is.
However once i AM addicted to kiting then things become a whole lot mote difficult... and gotta admit this is one of the reasons why ive put off getting back into it for so long. Once im genuinely hooked on kitesurfing then i just will not have time for other ppl or my non kiting friends... whether they be legit friends or not. But kiting addiction has the potential to destroy my work life too.... another means of escaping from society.... and i get paid for it. So i really do NOT wanna start messing with my job... which now that ive changed runs is actually looking better again... so with the exception of the car dramas things actually are not that bad... ive had ppl dramas all my life... thats why i embarked on the 10 years of seperation... the only person who lived in my world was Stipe..... and well lets just say he wont be joining me this time round HAHA... infact as mentioned before im actually boycotting the things we used to do together.... boogieboarding, wharfjumping, startrek, waiwera... heck even watching the wrestling is on its way out for me as we used to watch all the shows back in da day... and more recently at Scotts place. As for IPW im prepared to make an exception to the rule but im not being taxi service now as the driving there is traumatic... especially atm with basically an illegal car thanx to YOUKNOWWHAT.
However once i AM addicted to kiting then things become a whole lot mote difficult... and gotta admit this is one of the reasons why ive put off getting back into it for so long. Once im genuinely hooked on kitesurfing then i just will not have time for other ppl or my non kiting friends... whether they be legit friends or not. But kiting addiction has the potential to destroy my work life too.... another means of escaping from society.... and i get paid for it. So i really do NOT wanna start messing with my job... which now that ive changed runs is actually looking better again... so with the exception of the car dramas things actually are not that bad... ive had ppl dramas all my life... thats why i embarked on the 10 years of seperation... the only person who lived in my world was Stipe..... and well lets just say he wont be joining me this time round HAHA... infact as mentioned before im actually boycotting the things we used to do together.... boogieboarding, wharfjumping, startrek, waiwera... heck even watching the wrestling is on its way out for me as we used to watch all the shows back in da day... and more recently at Scotts place. As for IPW im prepared to make an exception to the rule but im not being taxi service now as the driving there is traumatic... especially atm with basically an illegal car thanx to YOUKNOWWHAT.
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