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Once Wazza moves into the palace i'll be moving out.... its working very well at my place atm... where i'm currently living.  my next mission of course is to start fixing my kites as i plan to fully get back into it especially once i move out of the palace.  other things that need to be sorted are a WOF for whitelitening.  FINALLY sorted the hot water predictament out.  Didn't see the need all the whilst i was living alone but now that others are living here it obviously became necessary and as mum sed this is now the best time to sort these things out due to the extra money coming in... other things needed to sort are the toilet door and the hot water tap in da kitchen... had a rite old spaz at da tap last nite as it wouldn't stop leaking my precious hot water lols.

Yep back at da palace with Devon, Eva and Dayna... as i type this i'm at my place... sorta spending quite a bit of time at5 both places but this time round have moved more of my stuff to da flat (da palace).  Cleaning out my place for tenants to move in soon... maybe by the end of the month.  But i don't do business with Randoms?  They ain't randoms.... Aston is Daynas brother and his gf is also moving in... the arrangment benifits us both... they have a place to stay... and ity helps me out financially too as i'm a bit dry at da mo (i splurged a bit with all this end of the world talk just to mock the dude).  Speaking of which... what a load of hot air... anyone who has read the bible allready knows that this is just more ranting and raving by yet another loony .  I for one are not remotely interested in any media crap atm... ppl have got too much time and not enuf self esteem nowadays and the advent of the internet means this sorta carryon is gonna get more an...

Thats all i can say basically... lots of ppl trying to make a name for themselves which of course is made easier by the invention of the internet.  Scaremongering, Viruses, moneyscams, get rich quick schemes etc.  As mentioned on my facebook page i will touch on a few topics... stuff that has been floating around and of course i will give my opinion of it. May 21:  Some religious group has sed that this is the day of the RAPTURE.  I guess this is to put a religious spin on the 2012 Hype generated by a few ppl with too much time on their hands and not enuf self esteem.  I personally think both the 2012 doomsday and the much less known May 21 doomsday are big piles of shit.  But i'm playing along with both doomsday dates... even if just an attempt to mock them.  I'll use anything to kick start my life... in OZ it was doom from BELOW with Sharks etc, recently it was doom from WITHIN with my Panic Disorder (THING 5)... and now its Doom from ABOVE with th...

there 4 things that i need to dial... firstly i needed to survive the first day back at work... with any sorta of mental illness its all about "punking" a situation... especially if it gives you phobias... like what happened last week.  Well i'm glad to say that i DID conquer my fears of sorting the mail and despite it being a huge day with lots o fmail i came through the other end unscathed... plus the weather held out as well... i initially thought i was gonna get drenched and frozen as a result but outside on da bike it was very pleasent. The second demon is of course THING 5... still fighting this illness... bloody balancing act... sometimes a tip toe... sometimes busting through... back on beta blockers to combat any palpitations caused by the anxiety... this of course in turn makes me feel faint when i get anxious cos the beta blockers stop the pulse from increasing to supply the increased workload due to panic.   As i write this i have just had YET ANOTHER panic ...

OMFG!! yeah boi its finally being written up haha.  Having allready sampled OZ ion da form of Sydney i was looking forward to lots of kiting and to be honest major uncertainty due to the rumoured deadlies that live in Queensland waters. Well right from the start i knew that this was gonna be an interesting trip and right from the start i sorta knew that maybe it wasn't gonna be what i thought.  We flew into Brisbane at about 6am Brissy time.  The weather was shocking... lots of wind, rain rain rain but it was a muggy 25 degrees.. remember this is at 6am so ominous signs of the rumoured Queensland heat and humidty.  Sydney got hotter, Auckland got more humid... but Brisbane combined the two into one sweaty package which whilst there made shorts, jandals and singlets the daytime attire... go for a walk and you were bathed in sweat from head to toe... and I LOVED it :P. But that first day didn't stop raining and that rain was deadly... i had flown right inot a disas...

What can i say..... it BACK and back with a vengence.  The fifth installment of panic disorder is now gripping me with fear and sickness.  In a year that so far has been plagued with health problems like severe toothache and severe anxiety huge questions are being asked by myself as to the lifestyle factors that are contributing to this illness. What happened today was the final straw... i was sorting my mail at work.... at a nice clip of speed i mite add as i wanted to get done early today to get ready for Eva's baby shower tonite (which i'm not goin to now cos of this  illness).... i felt panic set in and then felt very faint... shaking, tried to fight it but it just kept coming... then i was called to help out on the extra run and thats when the shit really hit the fan.. only JUST managed to stay standing up and afterwards had to sit down. ppl obviously were very concerned bout me and i obviously couldn't continue sorting.... let alone deliver the mail. This is t...

i'm making great progress with my weight training... able to bench 75kgs now.  My bodyweight now is about 82kgs so only 7kgs seperates my bench and body weight which is good by my standards lol.  i'm also slowly but surely buying tools i need for the big clean.... got me a pair of loppers the other day and have allready out them to good use. i'm trimming the trees in my backyard and now have a good supply of wood coming through.  I'm still battling panic disorder... being weary of not eating sunf becasue at this time of year i'm not keen on getting skinny... which can happen in prolonged panic disorder... in the summer this would be great... but not at this time of year. Andrews wedding the other day was a mixed bag.  The wedding itself was brilliant... good on him. Him and Tania are made for each other.... but where was the food?  on the way to the afterparty i had a bite to eat at Sierra cafe and sorta was worried that it mite mean that i don't eat as much m...